Tuesday, July 22, 2008

A new level of Girlness!

Oh my gawd! Look at that pic! That's me! I'm like totally a girl now!

Well, maybe outside wise. And how i've been acting. I think my familiy might be wise to me and my changes, but I SO DON'T CARE RIGHT NOW!!!!

I should, but i don't. Bryce put me way under today, and like everything fell into place. I went to town on the wardrobe and the makeup, used the new wig and some pointers I got online, and out popped QUINN! Bryce was floored.

Floored! (well, a little tackle from me doesn't help either...hehe). I didn't try the jeans, i went for a skirt, oh a and dress. He likes me in a skirt anyway....perve guys!

So, we took these shots, and sorta played around a bit. OK, we played ALOT! I don't ever want to be kevin again. But here i am now, back as kevin (cept my thong under my shorts,,:) ), letting you know what happened.

The gang over at Rachel's has been supportive; I only wish they were more vocal (like me! kidding!!),but hey, I'm doing this for me, not them.

Ok, gotta split. More soon.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Still dreamin

So, i've been doing my day dream exersizes, and it's been fun.

After getting pizza, and realizing how hot our server was in her tight knit pants, i gave it a go. It was fun, taking orders, flirting with guys, finding ways to show off my ass but not really show it off too bad. And the guys making the pizza were into me too! One guy got my number, and i guess i had gone out with at least one other guy! For a work related dream, it was fun.

Went with Bryce to the fair. Wish i coulda been in girl mode, but maybe for the Festival next month...:(.

Anyway, there were ALOT of girl hotties running around, and Bryce wanted me to pay attention to them. So, i did, and then i got some of Bryce's commentary. Stuff like about some of these girls live out here (fair grounds, in trailers) when they show their animals, and how they are kinda slutty sometimes (hey, wearing hotpants and a halter top that says "Sexpot" doesnt make you ALL slutty, does it?), and how they are all 'Daddies lil girls'. I can only guess what he meant.

So, I did the file. I woke up in a trailer, realized i was a few years younger, got a shower. Put on a skimpy pair of panties, no bra, a tight knit top and skin tight pair of very short jeans shorts. I went out and checked on my horse (Winnepeg), rubbed him down. Then went and had breakfast. Dad had made eggs and bacon (yummers), and he was so proud of the awards we had won already. He even said i was the best girl at the fair, and gave me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek! That made me soo happy. Then i went out and cruised the fairgrounds.
That part was a blur: guys making comments about me being hot, girls being nice to my face and calling me a slut behind my back. And old guy who kept stareing at my chest congratulating me on my awards, while his wife gave me the "stink eye" After meeting up with some of the girls, a guy that ran the bumper cars came over to me, and told me he thought i was pretty hot. He told me he was on lunch and wanted to have it with me. Rather than head for the food stands, I took him back to the trailer! As soon as i was sure Daddy wasn't there, I laid down on the couch and told him that lunch was "served"! (wow, i am a slut, arent i?), and then things went from there. Bryce called me and woke me up before stuff got too far, but it was far enough. I told him all about it, and he told me i should write this one out. (i think he was mad about it, for some reason) so i did!

So, any suggestions for more?

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Day dream believer

Wow, I sounded like a real slut in that last one, eh?

Bet you liked that, huh?


Well, I think I've got some of this stuff figured out. Seems that i can sorta control my daydreams a bit. I've been trying it for the last 2 days. I think about something, or read something, and if it leaves enough of an impression, my daydream takes on that form.

I guess, for my church one, i was a lil bit horny too, besides dreaming about church. omg i'm so going to hell.

So, besides doing my first ever caption (thanks for all the praise, gang), I've had a very interesting couple of days.

I read an article about female executives, and became some blonde office hottie; i sat with mom while she watched some movie with a wedding and then went and got married (to Bryce, natch!); after several flippings through my HS yearbook i've been a cheerleader, majorette, bad girl, teacher (i was in my class, weird?), prom queen and lunch lady; after going to the pool, i was a lifeguard; thinking about my sister when she was younger made me a little girl (that was fun...glad i wasn't horny then..ewwwwww); and after watching 'Girls next Door' made me a bunny!

I probably shoulda written all of them out, but it was a roller coaster of fun; if you want to hear one, let me know, k?

So, now i'm trying to figure out where to take that next: i'm thinking of tying an action movie and being a Buffy or some such, or maybe a comic. Thought about being a mother, dancer, or some other cute chick profession.

Bryce, being the big perve he is, has some other ideas. He's thinking striper, female character in a Skinamax movie, girl in a romance novel, or maybe hooker.

Another idea he had that i sorta like but it scares me is for me to read a bunch of captions and see what happens. That sounds like fun on the surface, but he has a bunch saved on his computer, and most of them are dirty. A few of them are incest related (those are his favorites), and he seems to like to show them too me. They are sorta hot, but just...i dont know, sorta wrong. But, he points out, its all just in my head, and we shouldn't get all worked up over some silly fantasy stuff. I guess he has a point, so we'll see.

On the super plus side, all this girly thinking has made me very good with my makeup, my new wig and my sis's clothes. I've been dressing on my own when i get the chance; going to take new pics soon, promise!

OK, off to go zone out.


Saturday, July 12, 2008

Church Daydream

Since i was still a lil bit mad at Bryce, i decided to try the daydream file out by going to church in a sexy dress. I found one on American Apparel's site

So, i turned on my pod and zoned out. Next thing i knew, i was getting out of the shower, getting ready for church. I put on that little number over there, some sexy blue undies, and matching 2 inch (it is church, btw) heels and headed downstairs. Daddy whistled at me, and i got all nervous, but he didn't make me change, although mom seemed to not like my outfit. After a quick nibble, it was into the car and off to church. I loved how the wind blew around my legs; it was all i could do to keep my dress down!

I hopped out of the car (an suv, so i had to step down....dramaticly of course), and stood infront of the church for all to see. I heard some people saying how grown up i was, some saying i was a slut, and quite a few men describing what they wanted to do to me. I just smiled pretty and went inside, making quite a show on the steps.

I won't bore you with the service; but i knew everyone was looking at hot lil Quinn! I uncrossed my legs, and i know i made the pastor lose his place. Then, mom looked at me and told me i had to do the collection. So i hurried back to the back of the chappel, and got the large brass plate. When the pastor indicated, i started down the asile, bending down to give and receive the plate. That's when i realized i might be flashing my sexy little ass to everyone. But, for some reason, i couldn't stop. I just kept on passing the plate, bending over, showing my cute blue panties. It was embarassing, but strangly a turn on too. Soon, i was actually wiggling my ass waiting for the plate! I knew people were watching me...and i wanted them to get their "money's worth". The really strange part was that while men were ogling me, mom and dad seemed unphased. When it was done, i struted back to the altar, bent over at the waist, turned, and walked a catwalk walk back to my seat next to daddy. I plopped down in the pew practically ontop of him, and he just put his hand on my knee like i was a little girl and said "Good job, pumpkin. You're such a pretty young woman now."

And thats when i got that feeling i get when i think of Bryce, or when i dream about him. All warm and dreamy.

That's when i woke up out of it, to my mom knocking on my door, tellin me we had church in the morning.

haha, been there, done that, mommy dearest!!!

First fight

Bryce and I had a fight today; not a guys busting knuckles on each other, but like a couple fight. I mentioned to him that i was having some doubts as to what we were doing, and thought maybe we should take it slower, at least till i feel better about things.

And that's when he started getting mad. He acted like i was getting in the way of what he wanted; i started crying and then pointed out that we were doing this so i could be Quinn, not so he could play with my head and create his dream girl. We yelled at each other, and i stormed off, crying like a little girl. I even started to throw away all my girl stuff (or return the borrowed stuff to my sister), and delete all my files, when Bryce knocked on my door. He said he was sorry that he was so mean. He was so amazed by our progress that he was getting excited, and couldn't wait for the next steps to start.

In the end, he told me that whatever i decided would be ok with him, but he hoped I chose to go ahead.

And, after alot of thinking and crying, and really wishing i could wear my sister's bikini, i agreed. He left me a new file, and it's really cool. It's alot like that 'dream girl' one we used earlier, but in this one, you do sorta a 'daydream'; i just used it again before i logged on. I was sorta sitting there, staring into space, but in my head, i was a real girl doing girly things in my girly room! I mean it was weird; i was setting out a cute dress to wear to church tomorrow, setting my alarm, txting to Bryce, changing into my nighty and cuddling up with a teddy bear daddy bought me. But in actuality, i never got up, and only 15 minutes passed! I might even try it again; just let my mind wander a bit. Maybe i'll think about Bryce before doing it, or maybe imagine going to church as a pretty girl!

ok, hope to write more soon!

Friday, July 11, 2008

Rough week

Sorry I haven't posted much this week; Bryce has had me doing alot of listening to files and spending time doing one on one sessions, and sometimes i feel so down afterward that i almost want to quit.

I'm not sure if it's that i know deep down i will never really be Quinn, or if i'm fighting becoming Quinn on some level, but Bryce says it's just a phase, and that soon it will all be alright. He'd never steer me wrong, right?

Well, I have big plans for the coming weeks, so i hope things start comeing together soon.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

After the Femme

Wow, I read that stuff and it seems like a dream....i guess the female mind stuff has worn out, or maybe waiting for a trigger to reactivate, but I'm back to my usual boish self. I don't feel like kissing my best friend, I don't want to strut around the mall (more on that later) and I don't want to wear girls jeans.

I want to wear a jean mini!!!

Hahaha omg i m sb!

So, this is in sharp contrast to yesterday's trip to the mall and movies. Like I said, panties and bra under my boy's stuff. Pink lace, for those keepin score! And in my head, a little file called "female mind", and let me tell you, it really worked. I really wanted to put on my sisters mini and hose, my make up and wig, but I couldn't, and i was soooo pouty! :(

Bryce picked me up, and we went to the mall, then to see Hancock. He kept looking at me, and finally he asked what was the matter; i told him that it was all i could do to keep from kissing him right there in the street. He laughed and joked that i was into him bad. Then he pointed out that I was sitting like a girl. I just giggled and pointed out how much he liked my legs. He shyly agreed, and we continued onto the mall. I reallized that when we were walking, i would sway my hips like a girl. I would try to stop, but it seemed so natural! Bryce told me i shoulda worn tighter shorts, since my ass is fantastic. God that turned me on! I told him that if he wanted, i could find something more to his liking in one of the stores; he said that we had time and he would love it, so he hit the Steve and Barry's in the mall! I picked out a pair my size, a pair two sizes too small, and when Bryce wasn't looking, a pair of girls short shorts! Then we headed to the changeing rooms.

I had Bryce stand lookout for me, even thought i wanted him in there with me...so to speak. To keep up the appearence of two guys being out, I tried on the pair my size first. He shook his head. So I darted back into the room and changed into those girls shorts. I asked if it was clear, and he said it was, so i steped out of the room. You should have seen Bryce's face! Jaw on the floor "omg your ass is so damn hot" was the basis of his compliment. I told him what i had on, and then went to put on the small shorts. They were very tight, but were still boy shorts. Bryce said he liked the other ones better, but we could work with these. I left the other stuff in the room and took the small pair to pay for them. After we left, we headed to the theater. Bryce wanted me to change in the restrooms there. Then he handed me a tiny pink thong, and told me he had swiped it for me; I was to wear it as well. I quickly went in and changed, and met him in the theater. I think I heard a guy whistle at me as i went in!

We didn't do much in the movie, at first. Then, Bryce leaned in and told me that i was so sexy it was all he could do to not take me in the theater. I actually moaned when he told me that. Then he slid a hand under my but to feel my ass. So, I let him feel me up for the rest of the movie. Then, he had me wait while the credits rolled. Before we left, he looked around to see if we were alone, and then he kissed me! This was our first 'non-girl' kiss, but it ws great. Then, with me sorta floating, we headed home.

I guess it was a good date, don't you think?

Friday, July 4, 2008

I'm his girl now!

OMG, I love Bryce! Since my 'rents were away, he decided to come over; I got dressed for him, 'natch.
The minute he saw me he as kissing me; telling me how pretty I was! The more he treated me like a girl, the more i loved it! We ended up on the bed, and we started making out, like before.

OH my, i do love the way he tastes! He treated me like a sexy girl that he was totally into, and that just made me melt. I even slid my hand into his pants, and played with his...you know. He kept asking me if I was ready for it, and i was like 'oh i want to be soooo bad', but I'm not sure if i meant i wanted to be ready for it or just wanted to be bad!

Anyway, I started to massage it, rubbing the head, and i loved listening to him moan. Then, as we kissed, and he felt my pantied bottom, he came in my hand. I got a tissue and.....

....thats a lie. I gobbled it down like a puppy. Sheese, i didnt want to write that, but I had too. Then he did a "magic trick". He pulled me close and said a word into my ear. Then i felt this wave build up deep inside me and practically carry me to the ceiling. I was moaning and panting and I didnt want that feeling to go away. I guess he found a program to make me cum when he told me.

I hope he always tells me; i want him to do that too me again. We're supposed to do something tomorrow, so i hope he does something like that. I'm not ready to go out dressed (yet), but I want to. So he wants me to wear panties and a bra under my clothes tomorrow. He told me that my 'female mind' training will let me feel girly enough.

I can't conceive of "girly enough"!!!!

He told me that he wants to try an experiment with me; like I don't feel like an experiment already. He's getting some stuff together; it should be ready in a couple of days. I'm so excited!

Girly right now!

Ok, so I have to tell you all! I am in girl mode big time! I've been listening to this "female mind" file that Bryce picked up for me, and I feel sooooo girly!

Bryce is just so great for doing this for me. I love the way that he has made me so feminine and yet he still treats me like his best friend. I get all excited just thinking about the other day when we kissed. I can't wait until we have another chance!

OMG, i've been looking at different stuff for me to wear when I'm dressed; I've found an old wig that looks REALLY great. And I think I can fit into some of my sister's jeans if I stop eating!


hey, I gotta go....i'm supposed to txt Bryce about tonite. I bet he just wants to play.