Hey there.
Sorry to be away for so long.
Well, part of that is Ike's fault; we lost power and was almost a week to get it back.
But the other half was that I was really thinking of giving up.
I know, I do this all the time, and I know I've really come a long way from a kid dressed in his sister's cheer uni, but for a while there, I was really thinking of doing it. Throwing it all out, deleting those files, eraseing the pics, and forgetting about being Bryce's girl.
But, I've talked to some people, and they told me that while they supported me no matter what I decided, they thought I should listen to my heart.
So, I'm back in the panties again!
hahah
Hopefully more soon!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Am I a Freak?
So, I did the experiment last night, mostly just to shut Bryce up and clear my head.
If you ever feel you need to experiment to prove something, then sisters you are in for a rude awakening.
I listened to the female mind files, as Bryce suggested, then I went downstairs to hang out with dad and watch some tv. He was watching a movie, so i grabbed some popcorn and sat on the couch near his chair. At first, everything seemed normal, and i felt vindicated.
Then, these stray thoughts started to pop up. I realized i had been watching my dad, like almost staring at him. I caught myself thinking about how good looking he is, a thought that almost made me leave the room. Then, after a bit, i found myself wishing that i could wear one of my outfits for daddy (thats what i thought, daddy!) to see me in! I tried to put them out of my head, and pay attention to the movie, but it was like a boomerang; as soon as i thought i'd gotten it out, it came back. I wish i knew why this was happening to me!
Well, eventually, the movie was over, and then i went to get the dvd out of the player. Thats when i realized that i had just bent at the waist to get it, showing off my butt like some street hoe!
Dad didn't say anything; he was reading the box, and that's what really bothered me for a few seconds: He didn't notice my cute butt in my nice black lace panties!
I don't think this was anything that Bryce did, at least not on purpose. If i had to guess, maybe it's a mix of the several hypno files that i listen to everynight.
There is another thing that's bothering me: i seem to want to get caught being dressed as Quinn. I've left things out that would reveal my hobby. I've left my computer or camera in states where my files could be found, and i've started wearing bits of female garb with my boy clothes.
I don't know what my parents will say if they find out. I hope they will be supportive, but you never know.
If you ever feel you need to experiment to prove something, then sisters you are in for a rude awakening.
I listened to the female mind files, as Bryce suggested, then I went downstairs to hang out with dad and watch some tv. He was watching a movie, so i grabbed some popcorn and sat on the couch near his chair. At first, everything seemed normal, and i felt vindicated.
Then, these stray thoughts started to pop up. I realized i had been watching my dad, like almost staring at him. I caught myself thinking about how good looking he is, a thought that almost made me leave the room. Then, after a bit, i found myself wishing that i could wear one of my outfits for daddy (thats what i thought, daddy!) to see me in! I tried to put them out of my head, and pay attention to the movie, but it was like a boomerang; as soon as i thought i'd gotten it out, it came back. I wish i knew why this was happening to me!
Well, eventually, the movie was over, and then i went to get the dvd out of the player. Thats when i realized that i had just bent at the waist to get it, showing off my butt like some street hoe!
Dad didn't say anything; he was reading the box, and that's what really bothered me for a few seconds: He didn't notice my cute butt in my nice black lace panties!
I don't think this was anything that Bryce did, at least not on purpose. If i had to guess, maybe it's a mix of the several hypno files that i listen to everynight.
There is another thing that's bothering me: i seem to want to get caught being dressed as Quinn. I've left things out that would reveal my hobby. I've left my computer or camera in states where my files could be found, and i've started wearing bits of female garb with my boy clothes.
I don't know what my parents will say if they find out. I hope they will be supportive, but you never know.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Figuring stuff out
So, as I posted before, Bryce really crossed a line with me. He made me a different girl ( i guess i'm ok with that), but worse off, he made me flirt with my dad...sorta.
Why do all the good ones have to be perverted???
So, after a couple of days to make him suffer, we talked. Eventually, we talked about what happened. I told him that in theory, everything that we did was hot, but the incest stuff just made me mad. He told me that there were two things that he had thought about:
1) Chastity wasn't my dad's child, she was just some hottie. So that's why i was able to be slutty like that.
2)You can't be hypnotized to do somethign you wouldn't normaly do.
That part troubles me, because if that is true, then it would mean that under the right circumstances, i WOULD flirt (or worse.....ewww) with my dad!
But, while my arguments were mostly me being mad, Bryce's were logical. He even proposed an experiment: I get myself in a female mind (listening to a file or two), then hang around dad. See what my reactions are, if any.
So, I'm putting my money where my brains at: been listening to female mind files for a couple hours now. I'm going to go downstairs and get a snack, and sit near dad.
We'll see how this goes!
Why do all the good ones have to be perverted???
So, after a couple of days to make him suffer, we talked. Eventually, we talked about what happened. I told him that in theory, everything that we did was hot, but the incest stuff just made me mad. He told me that there were two things that he had thought about:
1) Chastity wasn't my dad's child, she was just some hottie. So that's why i was able to be slutty like that.
2)You can't be hypnotized to do somethign you wouldn't normaly do.
That part troubles me, because if that is true, then it would mean that under the right circumstances, i WOULD flirt (or worse.....ewww) with my dad!
But, while my arguments were mostly me being mad, Bryce's were logical. He even proposed an experiment: I get myself in a female mind (listening to a file or two), then hang around dad. See what my reactions are, if any.
So, I'm putting my money where my brains at: been listening to female mind files for a couple hours now. I'm going to go downstairs and get a snack, and sit near dad.
We'll see how this goes!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
What a long strange week it's been! (or two)
So, flush from my out in public experience, I did what always happens; I got all drepressed. For a couple days, I did my usual self doubt stuff.
Then, Bryce started to cheer me up. So, that satuday we did our hypno thing. I became a really sexy Quinn, he took some pics, and then we went at it like horny rabbitts! It was really nice, he makes me feel sooo good, that I never want to stop being his girl.
So, I was surprised when he told me that he wanted to try something, and we would do it Monday (the 25th). Oh was he a bad boy....that day anyway. He had me get into this pretty dress. Then, he put me under. First of all, he took me outside, but made me not care or notice that it was 4 oclock and i was out as a girl for everyone to see. We'd been outside before, but not IN FRONT of the house. The other suggestion he gave me was that my breast inserts were real, and that he had gotten them for me.
I was sooo confused when i felt my 'boobs'; i couldn't remember the surgery, but since they were real (in my head) i must have had it. Yeah, we were bad horny kids again after that.
So, we didn't do too much the rest of the week, well until Saturday. Bryce had me listen to a special file for him; i really didnt know what was on it. It put me under so fast that i had no time to listen to it to see what he was putting into my head. I guess there were some suggestions for me to want to listen to the program alot, and to not try and fight it, because by Saturday, i was practically attached to my zune.
This next part is sorta hard for me to write; partially because i'm really not sure what really happened to me Saturday, and because I really feel sorta hurt that Bryce took this soo far.
So, after my parents went away for their usual Labor day get away, Bryce called me and asked if i was ready for the big surprise, and of course i said yeah. Then he said some word and everything gets fuzzy. I sorta remember getting out my newest wig and an outfit that he had gotten me. I got really made up...I've seen the pics he took and i don't really recognize me. Then he showed up and gave me a NEW NAME!!!
Chastity! And then he asked me if i was ready for out date. From what i can remember, all i wanted was to be his slut! Then we went outside, me looking like a different girl, and my boy taking Chastity out on the town! I couldn't keep my hands off of him, and he loved it. I even felt my new body like a real girl, and i REALLLLY wanted to show it off. We drove for a while, and we went to a nice little resturant, that looking back i recognized: the place mom and dad go out to eat when they go out for Labor day!!! Bryce took me inside, and we got a table.
From my hazy memories, i remember sitting where they couldn't see us. While we ate, Bryce seemed to be giving me ideas, about being sexy, about being slutty. Then, he told me to go to the bathroom, and to make sure i walked by a certain table (mom & dad's) So i wiggled my tight ass right by them, and after standing in the restroom for a few minutes, i strutted back. I remember my dad looking at me, and i gave him a sly, sexy smile.
I should point out that i wasn't myself, so he wasn't my dad, at least mentally. So, dad sorta smiled back at me, and i sat down with Bryce. Then we left. We went back to my house, and we were back at it. Like a horny slut, i kept nothing back. Bryce started to ask me how i felt about that "old guy" checking me out, and he even told me stuff about how dad was checking me out, and how he could see how horny i made him. Well, that made me practically cum right there. Afterwards, he let me go back to being Quinn.
I was soo pissed about him taking chances with me like that, and for making me get all slutty toward my own father. I kicked him out of the house. I've talked to him today, but I'm still pretty mad.
So, I tried to put it all behind myself and do a little hypno just me by myself. Tried a new look or two. I might do something with him this weekend, after he apologizes for what he did.
Then, Bryce started to cheer me up. So, that satuday we did our hypno thing. I became a really sexy Quinn, he took some pics, and then we went at it like horny rabbitts! It was really nice, he makes me feel sooo good, that I never want to stop being his girl.
So, I was surprised when he told me that he wanted to try something, and we would do it Monday (the 25th). Oh was he a bad boy....that day anyway. He had me get into this pretty dress. Then, he put me under. First of all, he took me outside, but made me not care or notice that it was 4 oclock and i was out as a girl for everyone to see. We'd been outside before, but not IN FRONT of the house. The other suggestion he gave me was that my breast inserts were real, and that he had gotten them for me.
I was sooo confused when i felt my 'boobs'; i couldn't remember the surgery, but since they were real (in my head) i must have had it. Yeah, we were bad horny kids again after that.
So, we didn't do too much the rest of the week, well until Saturday. Bryce had me listen to a special file for him; i really didnt know what was on it. It put me under so fast that i had no time to listen to it to see what he was putting into my head. I guess there were some suggestions for me to want to listen to the program alot, and to not try and fight it, because by Saturday, i was practically attached to my zune.
This next part is sorta hard for me to write; partially because i'm really not sure what really happened to me Saturday, and because I really feel sorta hurt that Bryce took this soo far.
So, after my parents went away for their usual Labor day get away, Bryce called me and asked if i was ready for the big surprise, and of course i said yeah. Then he said some word and everything gets fuzzy. I sorta remember getting out my newest wig and an outfit that he had gotten me. I got really made up...I've seen the pics he took and i don't really recognize me. Then he showed up and gave me a NEW NAME!!!
Chastity! And then he asked me if i was ready for out date. From what i can remember, all i wanted was to be his slut! Then we went outside, me looking like a different girl, and my boy taking Chastity out on the town! I couldn't keep my hands off of him, and he loved it. I even felt my new body like a real girl, and i REALLLLY wanted to show it off. We drove for a while, and we went to a nice little resturant, that looking back i recognized: the place mom and dad go out to eat when they go out for Labor day!!! Bryce took me inside, and we got a table.
From my hazy memories, i remember sitting where they couldn't see us. While we ate, Bryce seemed to be giving me ideas, about being sexy, about being slutty. Then, he told me to go to the bathroom, and to make sure i walked by a certain table (mom & dad's) So i wiggled my tight ass right by them, and after standing in the restroom for a few minutes, i strutted back. I remember my dad looking at me, and i gave him a sly, sexy smile.
I should point out that i wasn't myself, so he wasn't my dad, at least mentally. So, dad sorta smiled back at me, and i sat down with Bryce. Then we left. We went back to my house, and we were back at it. Like a horny slut, i kept nothing back. Bryce started to ask me how i felt about that "old guy" checking me out, and he even told me stuff about how dad was checking me out, and how he could see how horny i made him. Well, that made me practically cum right there. Afterwards, he let me go back to being Quinn.
I was soo pissed about him taking chances with me like that, and for making me get all slutty toward my own father. I kicked him out of the house. I've talked to him today, but I'm still pretty mad.
So, I tried to put it all behind myself and do a little hypno just me by myself. Tried a new look or two. I might do something with him this weekend, after he apologizes for what he did.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Big Developments!!!
We inturrupt Bryce's Backwood's fantasy for a breaking development:
I was out as Quinn over the weekend!
In PUBLIC!!!
I know, its amazing! So, after I did my other part of Bryce's b-day celebration, i got sorta upset about stuff. I know, I get that way after I dress alot. I get all "I'm never going to be more than a boy dressed as a girl." And then i get all upset and want to quit.
Well, this time is no different. But, Thursday, Bryce decided to lift me outa my depression and make me feel like a princess again! A town near by was having a Festival, and he thought it would be cool for him to take Quinn! Not a day dream, not a dream-dream, but for reals!
I told him he was bat-shitte-crazy, but he pointed out that if we did it later at night, when it was dark, and didn't cause a scene, that no one would know. With all the noise, crowds and other stuff, no one would pay attention (bummer) to the blonde hottie from outta town. It took him all day Friday, but he got me to agree. Although, in hindsight, i shoulda been more worried about a bunch of townies burning me at a stake.
We did it Saturday; i picked out my Quinn outfit (jeans, tank and boots), got my wig an makeup, and stashed them in a bag near the front door. I mean, i couldn't walk out the front door as Quinn, could i? (not yet), later in the evening, Bryce came by. We hung out, played some playstation, and he had me listen to that suggestion file....just in case he said. Then, we decided to hit the fest, for some 'fattening food' we said.
On the way outta town, we hit his house, and I got changed. And Bryce loved my outfit. So, after ensuring me that we were going to be ok, we headed to the Fest! We found a place to park, and i had another attack of the nerves. That's when Bryce pointed out the guys who were trying to get a better look at me through the window of the car! That got me a little more into it, so i got out. As we walked by, i heard one of those guys say "Damn, that boy is f**kin lucky! I gotta get me a chick like that!" (if he only knew, i giggled to Bryce). Then Bryce got mean, and told me that i should "Wiggle when I walked", and thanks to that file, i started to strut.
OMG! It was amazing! We were just another couple walking around town, looking at stuff, getting food here and there! No one looked at me funny. OK, guys did, but i think that was more of a 'who is THAT girl?' thing. And from what i could see, i looked pretty much like all the other 18ish girls walking around the fest.
Then, Bryce took my hand, and we WERE a couple! He is so sweet sometimes. (when he's not trying to make me act like a slut!) Yeah, that came up again: some guy was pretty drunk by this beer garden this club had. He started whistling at me, calling me 'sweet cheeks', and trying to get me to come over. I was embarrased, but Bryce wanted to have some fun with him, so he told me ''you're so horny now", and suddenly i needed a man! I looked at that drunk, then i smiled, then i grabbed Bryce and frenched him right there! The guy got pissed, but Bryce took me back to the car, where we made out for a while before going home. God it was so hot!
Bryce want's me to go out with him again soon, and i know i want that too. I'm just afraid that i'm going to slip up and get caught as Quinn! But for right now, i don't care!
I wanna be a princess!
Oh, here's a pic!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Well, yesterday was Bryce's b-day, and since we were alone, I was his girl Quinn all day for him.
I put on a skirt and stockings and all kinds of nice things. After playing around a little, he had me listen to some new files he got just for today. I was worried he was going to turn me into a stripper or something. Apparently, what they did do was make me even more suggestible, but not totally tranced out. So, after taking some pics that were VERY embarassing for me, he put the idea in my head that I really wanted to be outside as Quinn.
I was like a little kid, begging my boyfriend Bryce to take me outside. I kept trying to pull him out the front door, or trick him, or sneak around him. Finally, i got him to take me outside! The sun felt sooo good on me. Just knowing I was outside made me very hot. Well, I did somethings that a mother said no good girl would do for her boyfriend, but Bryce loved it, so that's all that matters.
After cleaning up, we watched a movie, and made some dinner. It was a reall date for me! Bryce was sooo sweet to me, he was a total gentleman. Then, the pervert side of him took over, and after the second movie, he decided he wanted pizza. He ordered it for delivery while i listened to the files again. Then, he told me i was going to pay for the pizza, and that pizza guys made me VERY HORNY!! As much as i tried to fight it, those thoughts kept rattling around my head! I couldn't wait for the pizza guy to show up, so i could be a sexy tease for him.
Then the doorbell rang! For a second i was nervous, then i was horny as hell! I wanted that guy to see me in my little skirt and top, so i struted over to the door and opened it. I didn't know the guy; he was like 20ish, but he looked me up and down for a second, then asked if i ordered a pizza. I just went "mmmhmmm" and nodded. He blushed and told me how much it cost; I made a big show of getting the money from my purse behind me (and bending over to show off my stocking tops), gave him a $20 and said 'keep it'. He thanked me, turned around and headed back to his car, stopping once to look back at me. After he pulled away, Bryce asked me if i had fun, because he had.
I jumped him right there. I was a very, very bad girl. And the pizza got cold!
So, tonite, Bryce wants me to read a bunch of incest caps while listening to the daydream file. I told him i would do it (i hope i wasn't under his power at that point...), and then write whatever I daydreamed, no matter how smutty, or pervered it was.
Pray for Quinn!
latta!
I put on a skirt and stockings and all kinds of nice things. After playing around a little, he had me listen to some new files he got just for today. I was worried he was going to turn me into a stripper or something. Apparently, what they did do was make me even more suggestible, but not totally tranced out. So, after taking some pics that were VERY embarassing for me, he put the idea in my head that I really wanted to be outside as Quinn.
I was like a little kid, begging my boyfriend Bryce to take me outside. I kept trying to pull him out the front door, or trick him, or sneak around him. Finally, i got him to take me outside! The sun felt sooo good on me. Just knowing I was outside made me very hot. Well, I did somethings that a mother said no good girl would do for her boyfriend, but Bryce loved it, so that's all that matters.
After cleaning up, we watched a movie, and made some dinner. It was a reall date for me! Bryce was sooo sweet to me, he was a total gentleman. Then, the pervert side of him took over, and after the second movie, he decided he wanted pizza. He ordered it for delivery while i listened to the files again. Then, he told me i was going to pay for the pizza, and that pizza guys made me VERY HORNY!! As much as i tried to fight it, those thoughts kept rattling around my head! I couldn't wait for the pizza guy to show up, so i could be a sexy tease for him.
Then the doorbell rang! For a second i was nervous, then i was horny as hell! I wanted that guy to see me in my little skirt and top, so i struted over to the door and opened it. I didn't know the guy; he was like 20ish, but he looked me up and down for a second, then asked if i ordered a pizza. I just went "mmmhmmm" and nodded. He blushed and told me how much it cost; I made a big show of getting the money from my purse behind me (and bending over to show off my stocking tops), gave him a $20 and said 'keep it'. He thanked me, turned around and headed back to his car, stopping once to look back at me. After he pulled away, Bryce asked me if i had fun, because he had.
I jumped him right there. I was a very, very bad girl. And the pizza got cold!
So, tonite, Bryce wants me to read a bunch of incest caps while listening to the daydream file. I told him i would do it (i hope i wasn't under his power at that point...), and then write whatever I daydreamed, no matter how smutty, or pervered it was.
Pray for Quinn!
latta!
Monday, August 4, 2008
Two week funk!
Ok, so, I've been gone for two weeks.
Well, some of that time was me being girly. Then, I had this crisis of faith where I thought that I was doing the wrong thing. I was born a boy, and I should stay a boy.
But then I saw my make up kit and new that was a bunch of bull!
So, then there was some family time; a little vacation. That part was the hardest; I didn't spend any time as Quinn, and I really didn't have time to even daydream like I had been. So, alot of the stuff Bryce and I did had to be redone.
Well, Bryce's birthday is comeing up, and he wants me to be his present!
Not like that (well maybe), but he wants girly Quinn for a whole day, maybe even for me to go somewhere as Quinn! (I'm not too sure about that, but he is the hypnotist!) The one thing he wants that I'm a little weary of is that he wants me to try a daydream after reading some of his fave captions, which as I mentioned earlier, are sorta heavy in the incest department. But, it's only in my head, right?
Right?
Anway, Probably some more pics coming soon. Sorry to be so short, but I also got to think about schooling too. College awaits (maybe I'll be full time Quinn by then....?)
Well, some of that time was me being girly. Then, I had this crisis of faith where I thought that I was doing the wrong thing. I was born a boy, and I should stay a boy.
But then I saw my make up kit and new that was a bunch of bull!
So, then there was some family time; a little vacation. That part was the hardest; I didn't spend any time as Quinn, and I really didn't have time to even daydream like I had been. So, alot of the stuff Bryce and I did had to be redone.
Well, Bryce's birthday is comeing up, and he wants me to be his present!
Not like that (well maybe), but he wants girly Quinn for a whole day, maybe even for me to go somewhere as Quinn! (I'm not too sure about that, but he is the hypnotist!) The one thing he wants that I'm a little weary of is that he wants me to try a daydream after reading some of his fave captions, which as I mentioned earlier, are sorta heavy in the incest department. But, it's only in my head, right?
Right?
Anway, Probably some more pics coming soon. Sorry to be so short, but I also got to think about schooling too. College awaits (maybe I'll be full time Quinn by then....?)
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